Back and Belly Pillow = Heaven

I got home yesterday to a home smelling of a mother's home cooking and a large box from Target.  YEAH!!!! My back and belly pillow came in record time!!!!  Ok, so I discovered this pillow during my pre-natal massage last Friday and fell in love.  So what did I do; go home, google it, and find it at Target.  $82 with tax and shipping for a pillow.  I know, that sounds ridiculous, but last night, that $82 did not even cross my mind.  I slept so freaking well I don't know what to do with myself this AM. I am energized, my back barely hurts, and my little apple in my eye is totally cozy and relaxed.  I even think I may have felt some minor movement this AM.  I was just laying in bed waiting on the 3rd snooze alarm to go off, and I felt bubbly.  Not gas bubbly. Like a fluttering of sorts.  Who knows, maybe it was gas, but I will keep a watchful eye out now to try and distinguish these movements vs. my bodily methane production.  OK,OK I wasn't gas!  I just felt it again!!!!!  Oh, okay, this is awesome!

I tried wearing a "fitted" sweater dress today, and nope, not goin to do it yet.  I feel so wide.  No obvious baby bump, just "WIDE LOAD" written across my hips.  So I am wearing a loose sweater dress.  :)

On another note, I am in LOVE with a new album.  Must check it out.   
Peter Yorn And Scarlett Johansson

Happy New Year everyone!  May 2010 bring happiness, joy and peace in all of our lives!  I know it will for me!

I'm just gonna say it.

I don't like the word "popped." I think if I hear it again, I may just cringe.  Just saying....it is not an appealing word.

I have had it with MUNI.  I will begin to accept that I will have to purchase a vehicle.  Why not put a car seat on a scooter???  Wouldn't that be so Brittney 2008 with her child car seatless in her lap in her Benz?!?! 

Christmas Bug

Well, Christmas was great with my mom here.  I got lots of baby stuff that was too adorable.  Little onesies, hats, tie dyes, and a really cute hooded velor sleeper.  My nephew got me a snow baby as well that is too cute and a tradition he has been keeping with his mother.

Anyhow, after the fun gift opening and my cats playing with all the bows, I got sick as hell.  I had it all, lower GI and then after a nap, I threw up SO much!  I felt like total crap for the rest of the day.  Aches, vomiting, fever, stomach pains that were horrible, you name it.  Thank god mom was here to take care of me.  I couldn't eat, which scared me since the little lemon needs her nutrients.

Saturday was not any better, but I actually got a real thermometer.  I had to use a meat thermometer Friday night since I threw mine out months ago because it did not work.  My mom got a kick out of that!  You gotta improvise when no stores are open on xmas!  Anyhow, lots of naps and Tylenol.  Food actually was working for me yesterday, with little stomach cramping, but everything was agreeing with me.  Called the doc and they said maybe it was heartburn/indigestion. I laughed at them and said, "I know it is not that!"  I just asked if I was doing everything right, they said yes and said if I did not feel better by today to call back and they would take me in.

This morning I feel 95% better.  Just ate some yogurt and my belly is making some weird noises, but no pain.  But I have to get out.  My aches are now due to couch surfing sores.  Atrophy has set in.

So I am thinking I have passed this bug of sorts...maybe it was all the toxins leaving my body from the massage.....but damn, I had a lot of toxins in me.....praise Jesus the devil is out of me now! hahahaha....

Just informative note, you can't take Pepto during pregnancy cause it has aspirin!  I could have taken Mylanta but I wasn't going to ask my mom to run out again.

Again, thank god she was here to take care of me.  I would have died without her.

Pre-Natal Massage

OMG.   I went and had a pre-natal massage today after a short day of work and let me tell you, it was the most relaxing massage ever.  So needed and I will now get one every month.  I was on a pillow that I must buy since I can still be on my belly.  Otherwise, they do the massage on your side holding a body pillow.

So I have been experiencing the rage/cry/smile/scream scenario and emotional roller coaster this week.  My friend (A) and I got into it yesterday at a xmas dinner about homes in the Mission, and an article I read.  I bit her head off and then walked away and started sobbing uncontrollably.  Welcome to the hormonal nightmare.  Gosh, that just sucked.  And just think, it is not the end of that!  Urgh, this may be worse than nausea.

My first baby Dream

So last night I had my first baby dream, and it obviously was reflective of my hidden anxiety about being a mother that I did not know I had.  Let me break it down for you.

Part One:
I am carrying my child, a boy by the way, and the name Cooper (that my mom loves), seems to be quite fitting.  He is blond and pale, which is so far from what this child will look like, it freaks me out.  Maybe I will have an albino child???!?!?!?!?  Anyhow, I have Cooper in my sling, go into a convienence store, and then leave....5 minutes goes by and it turns out that I left him in the store!  I run back in, grab him and then wander off to the next part.

Part Two:
I find a really sick, moribund greyhound in the middle of the road that has huge tumors on his neck.  He is about to die and I am freaking out that some owner could actually leave their dog out to die like this!  I have Cooper on my hip tending to this dog when the fire trucks come up the road and over the loud speaker announce "Everyone please stay where you are.  This is now a quarantined area.  This dog carries a rare spore that will kill everyone."  Great, I just freaking exposed my child to a mutant spore that will kill us all.

Part Three:
I am going to a horse show (dreams with horses =5-6 times now that I have been prego) and I need to get ready for the show, so I give Cooper to a dear friend to watch over (name will remain anonymous).  I go get ready for the show, tack my horse up, get dressed and run to the booth that Cooper and friend were at before I go into the ring to compete and Cooper is missing.  I can't find him anywhere, and then find him on the ground under the table at the booth.  He has a huge black eye!

Needless to say, I wake up, and tell my mom immediately about my weird dream.  Her sincere and not sarcastic response: "G, you are gonna be a great mom." 

Awe, thanks mom for making me feel better!

Pre-natal appointment #2

Well people, I gained 5 lbs.  5 lbs....boo.  The doc said, "Well, you can't gain 5 lbs every month," after I asked her if the 5 lb gain was too much.  She also suggesting not wearing a sweater the next time, little does she know, I almost stripped naked when the nurse asked me to get on the scale.  I guess my home scale is generous, since this AM I weighed almost 2 lbs lighter.  Ha, I am being a bit neurotic about this, I know.  But I need something to focus on that is ridiculous so I don't loose it on things that I need to have it together for.

We talked about my cramps, etc, and to reassure me that I was okay she did several things.
1) Checked for the heart beat.  Check and yippee!- a strong 150 bpm.
2) Checked to make sure my cervix was still closed.  Check.
3) Had me pee in a cup to see if I have a UTI.  Pending...

So needless to say, I feel much more confident in the health of my baby.

I have to schedule my 18 week sonogram!  HOLY COW, that is only a month away!  It seems like this is going way too fast, yet not fast enough.

I still can get the 2nd blood test for genetic screening if I choose too.  Still not sure I will.  I am so confused about this.  My gut seems to be missing on this right now and I don't know the right answer.    Maybe that is my answer though.

Pop

Well people, I guess I have "popped."  The size of my belly really does vary depending on the amount of gas, but it has happened.  The jeans still fit, but are a bit snugger than usual.

Nausea has made it back into my life again.  There was a nice 2 week break, but just when I thought I was in the clear, it came back with a vengeance.

Glad I am not back on the East Coast during this storm and my mom sure is too!

Shopping planned for the day.  Maybe get some maternity clothes....just tops for now.

My second pre-natal appointment is tomorrow, so I wll fill you all in if anything interesting happens.